I’ve Been Keeping a Secret…

November 13, 2018

Hi friends! I haven’t been on in a very long time and there is a very good reason for that, and I finally get to share it with you all. Matthew and I have separated and filed for divorce… I know, I know. You’re probably all kinda confused. I know here on my blog and other social media I made it seem like everything was fine and we were so happy. And I guess for a while we were but things changed and things got harder and it just wasn’t something I found myself able to do anymore.

With that being said, its been months since this has all gone down and I’ve since then been working towards my own happiness and taking some time off for myself. And while doing this I found someone else who makes me happy, incredibly so. His name is Brandon and I truly fell off the deep end for him and it surprises me at every turn how much I feel for this man. I really do believe he is the love of my life.

A little back story on us: We actually work together believe it or not. It’s really funny looking back on it now because he would ask me every day more than once if I would go to dinner with him and I would just keep saying no until one day I didn’t. I said yes and I think I took him by surprise because up until that point I would just laugh it off and say no. But Y’all wanna know a secret? I wanted to say yes but it felt wrong. I just separated not that long ago and while we had seen it coming months in advanced I just couldn’t shake that feeling.

So I went and had a long talk with my mama who said I needed to stop putting others before my own happiness all the time and do something for me. I am so glad I took her advice. The first date we went out to dinner at The Mash House here in town, I was so nervous I could barely come up with things to say but it was okay because he couldn’t stop talking he was so nervous. We sat there for what felt like the longest time and just had a conversation about nothing and I didn’t want it to end.

After dinner, neither one of us wanted to go home so we went and played putt-putt which I lost at very badly might I add. But even then with it starting to get dark neither one of us wanted to go home so we went to the movies. Although we did call it a night after the movie I called him when I made it home and we talked for hours.

The next few days all ended the same way we’d go to dinner and then find something to do just to avoid going home whether that meant going to see movies or just wander through different department stores. I wanted to spend all my time with him. Fast forward to now and I am happy to announce that nothing has changed and I still want to spend all my time with him. We live together, go to all kinds of family events and dates nights and just have the best time. He really and truly is the best thing in my life.

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And with that being said we have some very exciting news for Y’all! It’s been a rough few weeks for us, me in general and I have been very sick on and off. But I’m finally feeling better enough to finally write a new post and I’m so excited to be able to finally announce…